If You Want Me To
(Part 2)

<< Continued from part 1

By: Aeryncrichton82 E-mail: aeryncrichton82@hotmail.com

Rating: PG Category: Romance/Drama

Disclaimer: The Jim Henson Company, Hallmark Entertainment, Nine Network Australia and the Sci-Fi Channel own Farscape. They own all rights to characters mentioned within this story. I just used them because the show is frelling awesome and plus I have a wild imagination!

Summary: This is my alternative ending to what happens between John and Aeryn during the last scene of Dog With Two Bones. John and company have destroyed Scorpy's wormhole project along with the command carrier. Rygel, Aeryn, D'Argo have been exhaunterated from their "crimes" by the PK. Aeryn finished what she "started" with John and is ready to leave everything behind. This is their good bye.

Thanks: I would like to give thanks to Dallascaper and Rory Kearn for making the best shipper music videos that inspired me to write this fan fic. And also a very special thanks to all of my beta readers who helped me out and also who have me great suggestions!

Aeryn Sun gazed around the quarters that she inhabited for the last four cycles aboard Moya. The memories flooding back in an instant. Shaking the memories from her mind, Aeryn turned walking out of the room with her last bag in hand.

Aeryn made her way down to the docking bay, where her Prowler waited to be loaded with her possessions. Jool, made her way up to the galley, and stopped her in the corridor

"Aeryn," Jool said softly

Aeryn smiled slightly at Jool. "Yes, Jool?" she asked. Jool moved to stand next to her.

"I just wanted to see if the medicine that I gave you helped relieve your sickness." Jool said as she put her hand on Aeryn's arm. Aeryn stared at the woman with a look of gratification.

"It worked fine, Jool. Thank you." Aeryn said with a comforting smile. Jool took her hand off Aeryn's arm.

"When are you leaving?" Jool asked as her eyes slid down to the black bag that Aeryn carried in her left hand.

"Within the arn." Aeryn replied as she transferred her bag from one hand to the other.  Jool smiled back at her.

"I hope you have a safe trip," Jool said before heading off to her destination. Aeryn continued her way to the docking bay. As soon as she got there, Aeryn moved to her Prowler, climbed the short ladder, and put her bag into the supply area. She turned around to get another bag, when John came walking into the docking bay dressed in his leather PK coat with two bags in hand with him.  Aeryn's heart skipped a beat, shaking her head at an imagine in her head. This is not right. He looks so much like my John, but he is not.  What is he doing? Aeryn retrieved another bag, when she turned around John was next to the Prowler.

"I'm going with you," he said with a determined look in his blue eyes.

Aeryn shook her head and dropped the bag in her hand. "No, I'm sorry."

John jumped off the side of the Prowler and stood in front of Aeryn. "Well, you are not leaving without me."I cannot let her leave without me. I need her so much. It kills me to have a part of my heart leave.

Aeryn looked at John with a piercing gaze. "What do you want?" she asked.

"You," he said with a hopeful look. Aeryn picked up the bag from the floor and put it into her Prowler. She slowly walked to John, standing before him. "I'm afraid it's not that easy for me. You see, you died. I watched the happen, and yet you're still alive. I have to go," Aeryn said as she turned back to her Prowler. John grabbed her arm so she would face him.

"Then say goodbye," he said. Aeryn ripped her arm from his grasp.

"We don't say goodbyes," she said as she glared at him with crystal tears coming to her eyes.

"We do this time. You see, you leave, and then you come back. I can't handle the in-between. Aeryn, say goodbye." John said. Please don't leave Aeryn. I need you so much. There is so much we need together. I cannot bear to let you go.

Aeryn turned away from John and headed towards the Prowler. "Fine. Goodbye, Crichton."

John grabs her arm and pulls her close, they are face to face. "John. My name is John! 'Good-bye John' to my face," he says with anger in his voice. Aeryn feels all the anger and frustration that has been dwelling for sometime surfacing. She pushes John in the chest.

"Guarantee you won't die in my arms again!" Aeryn shouts.

John pushes Aeryn back in her chest. "Guarantee you won't die in mine!" John shouts back.

Aeryn glared at him with anger flashing in her blue eyes. "I can, by leaving!"

John groaned in frustration, yet he knew he had to ask this one last thing of her. "Do you love John Crichton? Not him, not me...John Crichton," he asked looking desperately at Aeryn. I need to know that you love him, so I know my feelings are not in vain.

Aeryn turned away from John and faced her Prowler. "Yes," she said softly as a single tear ran down her cheek.  John stood before Aeryn, bringing his face close to hers. Aeryn moves her face away. I can just feel for one last microt. The warmth of his lips against mine.  Aeryn stops moving and kisses John for that last time.

John moved his lips against her soft ones. He pulls back from the kiss and looked into her eyes. "Then what does that taste like?"

Aeryn tightened her lips up. How is it supposed to taste? I want the man that I lost. Yet, you are here and not him. "Yesterday."

John shook his head in disbelief, yet knowing that this was bound to happen. He turned away from Aeryn. "Well, nobody can compete with that. I am so much better dead," he said as he choked on emotion.

Aeryn looked at John with sadness in her eyes. "I can't do this again," she pleaded. John turned to face her again.

"I can't let the one thing I love fly away in a crappy little ship!" he yelled as he pointed towards her.

"You once said it was as if fates meant for us to be together," Aeryn said calmly, trying not to let her emotions get the better of her.

"And I believe that," John said.

"Well, then if it's true we'll be together again." Aeryn said, trying to give John some hope. There is just so much pain and memories. I know we shared that one time together, but that was not enough to release the pain.

"Running away is not fate, Aeryn. Running away is ...running away. Fine you want fate?" John says as he pulls out a coin from his leather coat pocket. "Here, I've got fate. Fate. Here." He holds up the coin in front of him. Aeryn moves closer to John.

"What?" she asks looking at him confused. "Coin toss." John explained as he ran his fingers over the rough surface of the coin.

Aeryn points to the head of the coin. " What, that side up, you stay?"

John looks straight into her eyes. " Absolutely. Fate." He tosses up the coin in the air, but Aeryn catches it.

"Just make a frelling wormhole and go home," she demands as she throws the coin at him.

"There is no home. There is no wormhole. There's only y..." he says as he covers his face with both of his hands and exhales exasperatedly, trying to regain calm. "Aeryn, anywhere in the universe. You pick the planet."

Aeryn looked at him sadly. "It's too late for that."

"Its not too late," he challenged back with determination. Aeryn screams in frustration.

"You're not listening to me. It's too late for me!" she shouts at him.

"You do this and we'll never see each other again," John says with tears coming to his eyes.

Aeryn turns her back on him, facing her Prowler. "Do you love Aeryn Sun?"

"Beyond hope," John replied with all the love in the world for her.

"Then don't make me say goodbye, and don't make me stay," she says as a single tear slips from her eye. John turns to leave, and Aeryn begins to kick boxes in frustration. She sits down crying. John looks back at her. Aeryn raises her head to look at him and gets up. She takes her foot and pushes the coin to him on the floor. John picks up the coin and tosses it in the air. Aeryn watches as the coin flips in the air, while John's eyes look at Aeryn.

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John stood looking out at the stars that twinkled like glitter out over the terrace. He ran his hand through his hair and looked out to Aeryn's Prowler.

"We are in the hands of fate now," Aeryn said over the com link from her Prowler. "We have to trust in that." John continued to stare at the Prowler.

"Good-bye, John Crichton," Aeryn said. John shook his head.

"We don't say goodbyes, Aeryn," he said. Aeryn maneuvered her Prowler to her current tergectory. She glanced back at the terrace and whispered softly, "I love you, John Crichton.

John heard her whisper. "I love you, Aeryn Sun." He turned the com link off. Aeryn's Prowler moved out of view. John made his way over to the cushion on the terrace. He laid down on it and put a pillow over his face, breathing in the scent of Aeryn. I can't believe she is gone. The one thing that I love in this entire universe is gone forever. A piece of my heart and soul is missing from the rest of my life. John sat up from the cushion and stared out to the stars.

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Aeryn put the Prowler on autopilot as she sped away from Moya. Tears slid down her cheeks as she thought about the love she was leaving behind. I'm sorry, John. I had to leave. It's killing me just being next to you. I can't explain the time that we shared on the terrace, but I love you. That can never change. It does not matter which John you are. I love John Crichton. You will always be apart of my heart and soul forever. She slid her hand down to her still flat abdomen. I'm sorry that you might never know your child. A child that was created out of love, not as a mistake. Aeryn brushed the tears from her eyes and cradled her hand against her stomach.

End of Part 2

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